Geeesh. I can't believe it's been almost 2 months since I've written on here. Once again my dreams of writing on a daily or even weekly basis have been shot down and totally put on the back burner. It seems that whenever I think I will have time to write, something happens or someone gets a boo-boo or needs more milk, or the phone rings, or the dog needs out, you get the idea....But so much has happened in our lives since my last post and I'm anxious to fill you in on some of the details....Writing for me has always been good therapy, so brace yourselves. I've got a lot to say : ) Although, I guess since most of you are on facebook, you probably already know most everything about me and us, but bear with me as I elaborate a little....
Since my previous post, Gary has gotten settled in to life in Pensacola and the three of us are finally into a decent routine here at home. Although I still hate that he's away, I've learned to accept it and try to see the positive in it and move forward from there. I remember when he got his apartment and moved in, I just couldn't get my head around the whole thing. An apartment? For my husband of 8 years? 8 hours away? And I'm happily married? Strange, yes. Overwhelming, yes. Emotional roller coaster, yes. All of the above. But I learned very quickly that you have to roll with the punches and keep on truckin'. Some days are harder than others, but we are managing and surviving here in our little corner of the world. My parents and my best friends have helped me in more ways than I could ever write and sometimes I think they don't realize how much they get me through the bumps in our road.....I thank God for them every day and I know it makes Gary feel a little better to know that we have people looking out for us here.
The hardest part in all of this for me has been all of the little things about Gary that I realize now I took for granted and got annoyed with for no apparent reason.....Which is probably a good thing for our marriage because I find myself now being so much more appreciative of him and the father and husband and friend to me that he is. I miss him sitting by me on the couch in the evening and how he is so slow to fast forward through the commercials on the DVR. I miss him sitting out in the garage taking a nap, which used to drive me insane. I'd be in the house with the kids fighting and there he is just snoozin' away, all cozy and happy in the garage. I can't tell you how many times in the past two months, I've walked into the garage and just wished I'd see him sitting there asleep in his lawn chair. Oh, and the snoring.....Believe it or not, I miss the snoring next to me, sometimes within seconds of us going to bed. I used to be like, "Are you kidding me? He was just talking to me, and now he's snoring?!" But oh what I wouldn't give to have him there next to me at night....
As for Gary, people ask me a lot how he's doing in Pensacola. And truthfully, I think it is much harder on him than us. My good friend, Jaime, recently told me this and I think it's so true. She said, "Remember, you have one person to miss and he's got three." I never thought of it that way, but when she said it, it resonated with me. It's kinda funny, actually. He's always telling me how he misses the noise in the house and the chaos that is our little Michael....All the while, I'm begging for quiet and alone time and what I wouldn't give for a meal by myself!
But anyways, his job is going well and I'm so proud of him for being there and doing this. He is doing what needed to be done for our family, and regardless of how hard it is on us, we both knew that God led him to it and it was what needed to be done at the time. I truly believe that it will make us stronger and better people.
And now for some fun stuff....We have a new puppy that was a HUGE surprise for our little ones. Emmie is her name and she is the sweetest little thing. In fact, I think my dad may be more in love with her than we are. She is 14 weeks old, getting better on the house training, and as playful as can be. It has brought such joy to the kids, almost too much if you ask me. I can't say that I love the delightful squeals and hilarious (and LOUD) laughter at 6 am, but I guess it could be worse ;-) Momma just needs her coffee before anything LOUD in the morning!!!
School is winding down for McKenna, I can't believe she's going to be going into second grade and will be turning seven this month. What happened to my little baby?! She's just like her mommy , busy planning what kind of birthday party she wants and what the theme and color scheme will be. The apple doesn't fall from the tree in this case! Michael is loving his little preschool class at the YMCA and just keeps asking me, "But Mommy, when can I ride the bus?" Baby steps, little man....Mommy is nowhere near ready to send you off on a school bus....I can barely stand the fact that he is growing out of the cuddles in the morning and the "Mommy, hold me!" phase. Like most of my other mommy friends, I'm sad to see them grow up so fast, but I know it's my job to let them go and be the capable, responsible, little people they are meant to be.
Well, that's it for now. It's Thursday night and that means "Swamp People" is on TV. I just wish Gary was here to watch with me and talk in his best cajun accent that I love....
Good night ya'll.